Monday, Dec 12, 2016
Hola Famlee! I hope you are enjoying your cold winter while I
am sweating buckets. haha. This week...was just one of those weeks that all
missionaries have, and it just took me 6 months to get there....A stupid but
very wise quote from a friend "it sucks to suck" has been
ringing in my head, and haunting me during all hours of the long and sleepless
nights. Literally no sleep this week. Who am I kidding? I never sleep. Looking
back, I don’t even know why it was so bad, just lots of little things every day
that adds up, ya know? comps are hard, ward members are hard, lack of lessons
is hard, slamming doors is hard, men yelling horrible things at me every day
for the past 6 months is hard, progressing investigators breaking apart is
hard, my health going out the window is hard, lots of new changes to the mission
is hard, missions are hard. And I knew it would be. And I would rather be here
than working and going to school life before, but this week just everything
added up and I felt like such a failure of a missionary. it sucks to suck! And
then Sunday night when you’re showing your cook/RS pres/mom how to
dance like an American it just feels all better for a second. And then you pray
more intently than ever before when your comp is sound asleep, and then you
read the conference ensign in English at 4am and remember that it's a
new week, you just feel better. Neal A. Maxwell said "Certain forms of
suffering endured well, can actually be ennobling...Part of enduing well
consists of being meek enough, amid our suffering to learn from our relevant
experiences. Rather than simply passing though these things, they mis pass
through us...in ways which sanctify us." Wow. Deep. Ali Lee, get over
yourself and be meek and humble and endure your suffering. Really. Honestly, I
am not even suffering and this week wasn't even that hard and I had so much to
be grateful for. Soooooo all of this is to tell you that we can have a hard
week and still be a successful missionary and still be happy and learn more
from it more than any other week. I have seriously learned so much this week.
And Revelations 7:17 says that God shall wipe away all the tears from
our eyes...so while I have developed the literal inability to cry, I think that
it is the thought that counts. We will have nothing to worry about when we are
righteous and ready to enter in the kingdom of our loving Heavenly Father. So
ya. Life is good. So good.
This week a circus has been going on....check out the
picture...real heck of a circus. haha. Also, I ate Ceviche which is breaking
the number one rule of the mission...but my cook made it and said it was okay
and the fish was cooked....(Ceviche is a famous Peruvian specialty in Trujillo;
a dish with fish only cooked from lemon juice) it was SUPER good....but the
fish was not cooked so that was great....i repented...and lost a little
confidence in my cook. haha. I also drank Coca Cola for my first time ever in
my life....nasty. I also repented of that. And of the inca kola soda I drank.
But sometimes...all the time you should not drink the water here so when
investigators give you water or coca cola, you take the pop. haha
So my life is good. I Hope you all have the greatest week ever
and enjoy your holiday season. I love you all.
THINK OF ME when you listen to Christmas music and play in the
cold...it seriously feels like I am still in July and Christmas is months away.
hahahaha
Pics: a Christmas tree we set up for an investigator, the circus
and our Christmas cactus...
Love, Hermana Lee
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